Monday, May 25, 2009

Words, have this unspoken power over my emotions.

I'm currently swamped with assignments, and should be working on them, but currently the brain isn't cooperating with me. Was browsing through my drafts, and thought showing some light to this post will do some good in a way. It's just quotes, that somehow rather spoke to me, whether it relates, that's totally another different story.

Words stringed together so beautifully.

*****

"才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友

谁会有勇气去开口

不在乎 不再难过

我们还有好大好大的借口 喔

故事的最后

我们都不曾失去过什么

我们依然是朋友 噢"



I knew what this was. It was bereavement. It was losing something precious. It was losing a part of myself I'd never gotten to know. I hadn't gone through the bereavement process like I should have done three years ago when I found out. I'd simply stay in shock, maybe even denial, pretended it wasn't happening. I was somewhat along the process of loss and grief. I knew that. Intellectually I knew that. Emotionally was something else completely. Emotionally a simple look would ignite enough pain to knock me out. - Marshmallows for breakfast


"Lost and insecure you found me you found me,
Lying on the floor surrounded surrounded,
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me..."


Quotes from Sisterhood of Travelling Pants 2:
Car's are easy. It's people you need a manual for.
You need to have a little faith.. Not everyone you love is going to leave you.

Sometimes words fail.

No one can diminish you but yourself.




"And how we laughed, and how we smiled,
And how this world, was yours and mine
And how no dreams was out of reach,
I stood by you, you stood by me... "



"他走了带不走你的
会留下彩虹泪光
了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地等待飞翔"


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Scaling Mount Kinabalu

Easter break '09 was well spent. Whilst everyone was busy meeting assignment deadlines, or just frankly taking a break from Monash's crazy workload, I took five days off, for this.

4095.2m, proudly achieved by yours truly. (:

I survived Mount Kinabalu, made it to Low's Peak, South East Asia's highest peak. It's so surreal till today I can't help but break into a smile when I share my experience with others. It's not being smug, although there is a little air of pride, but because it is such a big achievement for me. What made it tougher was that prior to the climb the only training I had was twenty minutes on the treadmill, zero incline. Besides, the doubtful look people shot me when I excitedly told them I'm going to attempt climbing Mount Kinabalu didn't help much. For one, a free dinner was even placed as a "bet" on whether I reach the top. How encouraging right.

But in the end, what matters most is that I made it to the very top,
I conquered Mount Kinabalu!

In my humble honest opinion, the climb was excruciatingly grueling for me, with much mind over matter chantings, a large chunk of will power, a pinch of determination, alot of God, and every single ounce of strength mix together to pull myself through the whole regime. But looking back, everything, all sacrifices made during the climb was so worth it. So worth it when you reach the peak, it's like that feeling of overcoming a tough obstacle, it drains, but it feels really really good at the end of the day.

There's tons of photographs at the end of the trip courtesy to three photgraphers, and Borneo is so beautiful. I already am missing that place, or a matter of fact, a holiday, a getaway from my current hectic life. Scattered pictures of the whole trip:-



Blooming flowers at foothill of Kinabalu Park.
Really really beautiful.



Trail Map of Mt. Kinabalu.
In anticipation of the climb.
The little triangles on the map shows the little pondoks available, and every time I step into one I feel like I'm one step closer to the top. The smallest encouragement helps ease the climb a whole lot.

At Timpohon Gate with our guide/porter Nizam. With the "Selamat Mendaki" sign brightly greeting us, we're still all pumped up, taking in the cool breeze. Very enthusiastic when taking our name tags, and lunch pack.


The team. As Pastor Lik said, "You'll never forget the people you climb any mountain with." Truly, it has been a wonderful experience, and I couldn't have done it without the support from all five of you.

The never ending big steps.




It was practically raining cats and dogs on our way up and down Laban Rata.


Little Miss Sunshine and Supergirl conquered Mount Kinabalu!


Complimentary hot coffee and Sabah tea at Laban Rata Resthouse. Weather was very chilly so it was very pleasant to sip up tons of hot tea to warm the inner body. It was also here that we had a hearty buffet dinner and a light supper before we continued our climb to the peak.



Sunset view at Laban Rata.
We're practically above those puffy cotton candy lookalike clouds.
Breathtaking view ey?


Esther and I all geared up at 2.30am. I think the temperature was around 3-6 degrees only. Air was very thin, thus making breathing difficult and climbing in the dark difficult. The beautiful thing about climbing at 3 in the morning is the uncountable bright shining stars in the sky lighting up the path for us. (:


Awesome breathtaking view from almost-peak.


THE PEAK!


My shoes gave way a whole lot, and if it wasn't for the nice guide who hold my hand all the way down to Laban Rata, I'd think I'd already slip a couple of times because I was wrongly geared with running shoes. I'm forever grateful to the guide, really. (:




Backpacker's lodge @KK town
It was my first experience staying in a backpacker's place, and I really liked the open concept of it. Free internet access, tv at the lounge, not to mention it's way cheaper than hotels.


On our journey to Padas River white water rafting. The train broke down, so our alternative transport was the "trolley", where the locals would pedal a simple assembled "raft-like-board" with wheels attached. To which I've also experienced a near crash with an oncoming vehicle. Tales that lasts a lifetime.


White water rafting was bundles of fun! (: Enjoyed it tons, and would love to do it again. We were so blessed with amazing sunsets almost every other day in Sabah. Watched this on the way back from white water rafting in the oldest train to Beaufort station, I still remember that little bit of history.



Last day in Sabah was spent sight seeing.
The Navy's were having some event on that fine day.


Us @ The Filippino Art Market
Haggling skills come in handy as starting prices are ridiculous.


Acting bimbo with a red telephone booth, before heading to Pulau Manukan for some lazing on the beach with Esther.



15 minutes speed boat ride to the nearest island.
Absolutely loved the ride.





*******



*Clinks glasses* to our success.

Thank you, for walking with me till the end.
(:

Many thanks to Pastor Lik, Pei Hong, Uncle Steve, Aunt Jamie and Esther, for such a unforgettable trip. To Esther, I'm glad you chose me for the trip, apart from all the fun activities, it was really great having bonding sessions with you over Maggi Mee at the backpacker's lodge, and oogling over that tanned skin good body china guy in boxers. Hahaha. Good times, good times indeed.



As for Borneo, land under the wind, I'll be back in due time.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I love the way you say good morning



Saturday morning Breakfast at Roz's.
Homemade pancakes with butter and maple syrup.
Orange juice. Cold chocolate milk.
Guitar, RC, Puppeteer.
Lazy Saturday works great for me.
We so should do this more often.
(: