this is my story for 2009.

bittersweet. like how the taste of a cup of caramel latte would be. the sweet drizzle of caramel, a swirl of whipped cream, followed by a sip of bitter espresso aftertaste. it's good. but sometimes the bitter after taste lingers on the tongue a little too long for my liking. pop a marshmallow in and you'll be good again. thing is, I don't like marshmallows. period. so I'd rather let the aftertaste linger, and learn to appreciate it. bittersweet, indeed.

Am currently spending a 6 hour transit in Changi Airport, with fast internet connection, and a squishy nice sofa to sit on. I'm thinking of writing a closure for this year, but honestly, my mind is filled with too many random thoughts at the moment. happy I had lou mai kai before I left just cause I was craving for it so much. I'd still wished I'd wake up for dim sum. le sigh.

There were a few specific events that happened this year which were totally unexpected, a change from norm. December marks one of the craziest month ever. Honestly, at this point of time, I'm glad things aren't as bad as it seems, that most things are going the way it should be, like graduating from Monash, and my trip to US of the A. 2010 is definitely going to be exciting, challenging, and hopefully, a fuller year.


.. thank you all, for the birthday messages, the sweet surprises, the lovely gifts, the encouragements, and for simply making a difference in my life just because you guys care. (:

Have a Blessed New Years.

Today

.. marks my bittersweet 21st b'day.


Closure of one important chapter in my life,
embarking on an interesting chapter ahead.

if you'll be my star...

... i'll be your sky

you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when i turn jet black and you show off your light

i live to let you shine

i live to let you shine

but you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy

far from here with more room to fly

just leave me your stardust to remember you by

-Meredith Godreau

Simplicity is the key

A friend once told me that.
So.
I'm applying it right now. This instance.
Why complicate life?

#1. I'm a graduate, of Monash University. Thank God!!!
#2. Taro balls from Snowflakes made me a happy girl.
#3. Should stop using the word stupid so often. It's not very pleasant.

#4. Anger management. Sensitivity button. Cut me some slack. Stop judging me.

#5. Christmas is just around the corner. Are you feeling the atmosphere yet? ;p
#6. Declining all part time job offers from today onwards. I need the quality time.
#7. Couples Retreat is quite a mindless humor movie.
#8. My schedule is filling up. Yet I still have important people I need to spend time with. ):
#9. Bring me on a ride. to somewhere unknown. somewhere magical.
#10. I'm breathing, and I've never been more thankful.

Tuning in to bed before 1am. With a book in hand.

Bliss.

Bimbo post

"So I will dance with Cinderella,
I don't wanna miss even one song,
cause all too soon,
the clock will strike midnight,
and she'll be gone... "

I am supposed to be asleep, tired I may be, I feel so compel to write, it's been awhile after all, since a decent update was written. November is coming to an end, and in a month's time, the year is officially ending. It's been a roller coaster year for me, and as much as denial plays its role, I've realized that I've experienced drastic changes this year, and sometimes the changes surprises even myself, and I'm still finding footings in a lot of things in life. Questions after questions pops up in my mind on and off, to which I cannot give a proper answer. Only recently did I understand what it meant by a complicated situation, only lately did I understand, knowing more does not necessarily makes you answer questions better. What ifs and what has become, was it my expectations? or my selfish little ways? or are we just human? I'm tired. so tired at the moment I just want to throw everything aside, and enjoy the pleasurable holidays of waking up to sweet nothingness, and make random plans just to make myself that tad bit happier, or think less for that matter.

To those who don't have an inkling, I'll be leaving to the States in a month's time, for Work and Travel USA. It's been something I've been wanting to do since forever, alright forever is an overstatement, but yea, it was one of my to do list to ticked off. At this point, everything is settled, flight tickets are already paid for, visa already approved, and yea, all there's left is packing and leaving on a jet plane. To be honest, the feeling hasn't really sunken in, it still feels very surreal, and I'm not that ready as I thought I would be. Five months isn't that long a period, but long enough for things to take changes, things to take flight, things to wear down. For once in my life, everything is so tentative, everything is not definite, and it's scary, but very exciting at the same time. I guess the whole thingamajig of feeling overjoyed, nervous, sad yet happy kinda feeling will only sink in probably a week, or maybe just a day before departure. I'm that kind of last minute person, although thinking of New Year's in Miami itself is already sending tinglings down my spine! ;p

Holidays so far has been great, awesome in fact. It felt pretty empty at first when exams just ended, probably because I've already got so accustomed to the study sleep eat life, but life is now. Life is the ability to sleep in, to catch up with friends whom I haven't meet for ages, to play guitar hero till the wee hours of the night, laughing my butt off hearing my sister sing to rock songs she'd never heard of, to take a million pictures, to have odd jobs for that extra pocket money.. ok I believe there is more to life than these things, but I'll settle for being easily contented at the moment. The month of December is reuniting with me in two days, and it remains as my favorite month of the year. It will pass swiftly, in a blink of an eye, as much as I try to grasp hold of it, but one thing for sure, it's going to be very different from the other Decembers I've had before. Right now, all I hope for is a good month, good month in the sense that things will go smooth, priorities will be acknowledge, good results, hearts will be mend, relationships be healed... honestly I just want a genuine smile again.

Things that keeps me sane over the holidays and pre-holidays:

Girly Gossip Day
Short catch up over cupcakes and savories.
It's nice to have girly meet ups every once in a while.
Girl talks are so essential in life.



Cupcake delivery girl
;p



Sweet tooth

I've such a sweet tooth when it comes to sweet drinks. You name it, I'll love it. Ooo, especially when it comes with sticky chewy pearls/taroballs (snowflake one is ♥)/tong yuen with black sesame filling mmm. The one in the picture is from Hong Kong (on the same row with KTZ SS2) which we've decided to try since KTZ was so packed. Ended up being conned because it cost RM7 just for that bowl up there. Not worth. Boycott! Three layer tea smells so heavenly with Gula Melaka in it!! Extra brownie points!

Lookoutpoint

Been up there a couple of times, and still enthralled by the breathtaking skyline view. Too bad the look out stand that used to be free for all is currently occupied by a new restaurant, sigh, making you pay if you want to get to the top deck for good pictures. Such rip offs.

The 'corporate' us
Working for Microsoft events are pretty fun.
We were lamenting that this look would be us in the future.
Meeting up in formal wears instead of that flirty mini skirt and tight fitting spaghetti top.
Sigh, this is how fast time flies.


View from Level 39, Twin Towers.
Motivates me to work harder to work in offices with city view.

Fooling around in formal wear post event, till we were so tired and cranky.


Sitting down in front of the art gallery, just cause I'm not born to walk in heels, and it hurts.



Volunteering for Vacation Bible School
Team Elephant!! ;p


'Watering Hole Snack'
Their food crafts are all very very cute!



We also managed to have a trip to the ostrich farm, where we saw, sat and ate ostriches.
That little girl was trying out by stepping on ostrich eggs. Pretty hardy aren't they?


See what I told you? So cute right!
This is giraffe! The chocolate stick is to die for!


Zebras! Haha. Taking care of kids aged 4 to 6 years old is a bundle of joy and headache.
Massive. None can sit still! Seriously.


Crafts 101.
To which the helpers did most of the work at the very end.


Isabelle! (:
Such a sweetheart! Heh, but such a naughty little kid.


Vanora!
..is such an intelligent charming little girl.


SEEE!!!


Glowsticks loveeeeeeee.

Johnson's 20th

♥ thank you!! for obeying the cinderella's curfew. heh.

Winter bar is so freezing cold!! Brr was literally freezing half the time inside.
I loved the chair though, the egg shaped chair. and the interior of ice bar.

Barbeque Party

Super delicious rosemary chicken, with salad, grilled veges, sausages and smores.
Mmmm. ;p
Maybe I need to learn how to domesticate myself.

... and here comes the end of bimbo post, as comical as it may sound. I need to un-bimbofy myself to get some decent rest, and finish up my project long overdue.

hiatus.

I'm still alive.
just busy. busy. busy.

;p

colour my heart

It's like you come onto this planet with a crayon box. Now, you may get the 8-pack, or you may get the 16-pack, but it's all in what you do with the crayons--the colors-- that you're given. Now don't worry about coloring inside the lines or outside the lines. I say, color outside the lines! Color right off the page! Don't box me in. - Waking Life

because it will be worth it

I don't have a fear of commitment - I have a fear of abandonment.

We all screw things up;

I screw things up, especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, 

I want to be too close, I get confused.

I don't understand all of it but I keep pushing because I hope in this thing - the universe. There's no way I'm the only person out there who wants something this bad. 

If I want it, someone else out there must, too.

the final hurdle

four more days of camping in the ice cold library.
for the toughest subjects ever.
pretty much gotten accustomed to this life.
but oh yes holidays, I've missed you.

you could say I'm a dreamer.

Kinz' old school camera, trying out vintage photoshopping

Lately the blog has been filled with too many emo posts, though I'd much prefer to call them thoughts and revelations (HAHA). it's ok, for now I barely have the time to think, given all my attention thrown to books, although some may beg to differ, with the tap tap and pigging out sessions. ;p I'm just officially stuck in the last cycle of finals season, and getting into routine is quite a bore at times. Just 8 more days to freedom. 8 more days. 8 more days and I'm done with uni, for good.

God has been awesome, as He always is. I twitted this awhile ago, but yea God's angelic protection was with us, resulting in a failed attempt of a robbery aimed at our house, except a broken grill. That's number 1. Number 2, I went for my visa interview with Ju just a couple of days ago, and it went so smooth, getting a good parking, a good interviewer, and getting there on time (click on Ju's link for a more detailed post in regards to the interview). We friggin' passed our interviews!! Number 3, PWC called me today, and said they're going to KIV my application, upon returning from US, all I need to do is contact them. Seriously, God's grace succumbs all, creates miracles. (:

One more thing, treasury paper went well, with the amount of tips he gave. That's one down, three to go. Now I need more grace than ever. Accounting theory and audit, please be friends with me?



Ok, short filler post ends here. Off to bed, 2am, new record. I hope I can doze off, seriously, need to fix my sleeping time so bad.

realisation

"How do you say goodbye to someone you can't imagine living without?"
I didn't say goodbye, I didn't say anything.
I just walked away.

My Blueberry Nights

i am stoopid like that.
naive.
rar.

Here comes the sun, sea, and sand! (:

Lang Tengah, in short, consisted of good beach, good food, good company, and plenty of relaxation and tanning. I call it one of the last trips before graduating from university, a little bit more memories plus pictures to add in the memory keeper's university's folder. incidences like spending a little too much time in the airport's mcd resulting in us running like we've never ran through countless terminals to catch our plane just in time; late night charades with chips and coffee, and alot of laughters in between ahem cue shrek, the orphan, alvin and the chipmunks.. having chauffeured around Terengganu town on the last day in a private bus, oh we were so blessed... honestly, I think I valued the company more than anything else. (:

"ok now do fly shot!"

loved the beach.

"emo shot"
haha, I thank God for Ju, my only SS friend.
tsk everyone else don't layan the camera one.

essentials. which weren't really essentials at the very end.

A toast, to a great semester together, and for more memories to come. (:

clearly, I'm distracted from studies. for tonight at least.
arghiosjfoihifuarejofijeriaofjidosjfa.
g'nite.

Here's a sneak video of us playing charades.
It's one of the funnier ones, if you can catch it.
Guess the movie, and post a comment.
(: